30 Weeks!

I am now about 30 weeks pregnant and have about 61 days to go until my c-section date. We are scheduled to meet our baby on January 22, 2011. It still seems so far away, but I know that the day I get to meet my son is really not that far away. I know that December will fly by with all the Christmas festivities and such and before I know it the moment we get to meet the newest member of our family will be here. I cannot wait. I feel fine, physically. But, I get tired very easily and my lower back often aches. I am trying to enjoy the little things like sitting with my feet up and feeling the baby kick. We are still fighting about names, but I think that when the baby gets here, it will be decided upon quickly. Until next time...here are some pictures from my 3d ultrasound. The black and white one is picture evidence we are having a boy.

Del Deacon

I am sad. My father in law succumbed to cancer on October 11th, 2010. I was with him. I woke up that morning (my husband had to work)and felt this need, this pull to go to the hospital. I had to go. I asked my babysitter to sit with my kids for an hour so that I could visit Del. I really just wanted to check in on him because I knew Dave was working and that he wouldn't have time to go and see his Dad before a family Thanksgiving dinner that we were supposed to attend later that afternoon. I wanted to be able to reassure Dave that I had seen Del and he was ok. That was not what happened. I got to the hospital just after noon on the 11th. As I walked through the hospital doors, I got this eerie feeling that something bad was going to happen while I was there. I went up to Del's room and as I walked through the door, I was happy to see that he had his eyes open(as I hadn't seen him with his eyes open for almost a week). I said "hello Del" and soon realized that he wasn't responding to me and that his breathing was laboured and gurgly. I sat at the window seat and cried for about 10 minutes. I then went into the bathroom and cleaned myself up and took a minute to regain my composure. When I came out of the bathroom, I realized that Del's breath was coming slower. Everything happened so fast, I didn't have time to call any of the family...I knew they wouldn't get there in time and I didn't want to leave his side to get a nurse. I didn't want to leave him alone. So, I stood by his bedside and stroked his hair until this breathing stopped. After a minute, I went to the door and flagged down a nurse. The nurse went to get Del's nurse and they came in to check his heartbeat. After a minute, they confirmed what I already knew. I just sat there and cried. I asked them to give me a minute and I called my Mom; who was working at the hospital. She came to help me. I tried to call my Mother in law, but I couldn't bring myself to tell her the news. I had to have the Head Nurse do it. I then went with my Dad to break the news to my husband; while my Mom waited for my Mother in Law. I went and picked up my husband on one of his jobsites and told him the news. We all then gathered at the hospital to say our good-byes. I felt and still feel horrible. I wish I had said more to comfort Del while he was passing...but, I was in shock and couldn't believe it was happening. I wish it had been someone more important to Del who had been with him. I wish I could take away the hurt and pain from my loved ones. But, more than anything, I wish I could bring Del back. He was a great man and I am proud to have known and loved him.

It's Official!

We had a 3D ultrasound yesterday. It was a little disappointing in the fact that the baby hadn't put on enough fat yet and we weren't able to get any good pictures. But, we were able to find out that we are in fact having a boy!!!! I have to admit I am a little nervous at the prospect. I have never had a baby boy and I have no experience with it...we shall see how it goes. We go back on the 27th to complete the ultrasound and will post some pictures then. I put a new poll up and you may have to hover over the names to get the full name because one of them has 2 middle names. Until next time...

What's Important

Well, the biopsy results come back for my father-inlaw and they are not good. He has cancer on several different organs and the prognosis is dire. They are giving him 3-6 months to live. However, if one of the tumors on his brain starts to bleed again, he could go instantly. We are all devistated. This is so not fair. As fate would have it, 6 months would take us to around Jan/Feb...around the same time the baby will be born. Talk about bitter sweet. It has really made Dave and I see just what is important and what isn't. Vacations are nice, but they aren't important. Bigger and better electronics and toys may be fun, but they aren't important. Family is important. There really isn't anything that is more important.
On a happier note, we had another ultrasound today. Everything looked good (as far as I know...the tech wouldn't say much) and the heartbeat was 153 BPM. However, the baby wouldn't open up it's legs...so, I guess baby garlic will be a surprise!

It was raining...now, it's pouring....

A couple of days ago my mother in law called me at work and said that Dave's Dad was being rushed to the local hospital by ambulance...could I go with her? Of course. But, before she got to my work to pick me up, I got another call from her...you better call Dave, Del is being taken to Kingston. He had fallen in the yard when the left side of his body gave out. So Dave and I, and Lisa and Theresa headed to Kingston. After driving around for what seemed like an hour, we finally found a parking spot that was big enough for the truck. I went into the emergency department waiting room while Dave fielded a call from work outside. His Mom came out and told us some terrible news. His Dad had several tumors on the right side of his brain. They appeared to be cancerous and one of them had started bleeding. We found out later that this is what caused the stroke. We visited for a hour or so, and when it was obvious that we weren't going to get any answers that night we headed home with heavy hearts. Dave was devistated. When he finally came to bed at 2am he was still sniffling from crying all night. We got up in the morning and went to work. Dave's eyes were red and puffy and it was clear to anyone who spoke to him that he was terribly upset. I called Dave's Mom (who was already visiting Dave's Dad) to see if there where any updates before we went to see him...there were. Del had had his CAT scan and they had found a tumor in his lung that was about the size of a lemon. We are still waiting on the biopsy to confirm whether or not it is melignant. Please help us pray for good news.

Sad

So, today is my birthday. Normally a day I love and look forward to. Not this year. I could care less. Besides feeling like shit for something I don't want to talk about about, this will be the first birthday for as long as I can remember that I won't have Nan call me and wish me a Happy Birthday. It was always a highlight. The best part (in the later years) was when she would call and wish every person in the family a happy birthday before she finally got to my name (she always had such a hard time with names)! Hopefully, next year will be better.

A Little Scare

So, I had some spotting last week and went to the doctor about it. He immediately put me off work for a week and ordered an ultrasound. Dave couldn't go with me, so I asked my cousin Emily to go. (she seemed more intent on trying to convince the ultrasound tech that I was having twins...which I am not) The baby looked fine and the heartbeat was strong. Still no word on what we are having. I will find out at the anatomy ultrasound on September 8th. I am back to work now, but have been ordered to reduce my hours and my workload...and if I start bleeding again, I am to go home immediately. So, we shall see what happens. Other than that, I have been feeling ok. I am still having sleeping issues. I am dead tired, but can't sleep at night. Hopefully, this soon will pass. On a brighter note, I am able to feel the baby's movements. Dave and are busy moving bedrooms around and are (soon) going to get started on baby "Garlic's" nursery. With back to school fast approaching, it is becoming a really busy time at the Deacon household...and I don't imagine that will let up anytime soon...before we know it the Christmas holidays will be here and then it will be baby time!!!
Here is the latest ultrasound pic...