Sad

So, today is my birthday. Normally a day I love and look forward to. Not this year. I could care less. Besides feeling like shit for something I don't want to talk about about, this will be the first birthday for as long as I can remember that I won't have Nan call me and wish me a Happy Birthday. It was always a highlight. The best part (in the later years) was when she would call and wish every person in the family a happy birthday before she finally got to my name (she always had such a hard time with names)! Hopefully, next year will be better.